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I exist!

I exist, even in mid-February.

It's true!

Of course, I definitely find that school is eating a lot of my social energy, especially with needing to deal with participants. And scheduling things is always hard on me, especially this time of year, and guess what I have to do in order to _get_ participants? Yeah. So, if I'm sucking at scheduling things, that's at least part of why (and winter is the other part).

Interestingly, this winter is much less bad for me than usual. I suspect that it's because I'm not a) in a job I was long since done with, b) in a crazy, crazy masters program, or c) bored out of my mind. I don't know for sure that that is all of it, though, since I feel like that's... somehow not enough to explain this level of reduction in depression. Especially since I've been doing terribly at sleeping before midnight, no matter how much I want to.

I am somewhat suspicious of this decrease in depression, although I do know that I was sick for weeks recently, and that may be one way that the season is coming out. I was seriously sucking at actually having energy to do class stuff, let alone maintenance with metahacker or time to actually visit jasra, though. Being sick is part, and I bet winter is part.

Actually, now I'm just confused as to what my depression is doing, aside from social effects. Ah, well. If it seems less bad, I'll take it. Now I just need to find enough not-sickness to catch up with my people.

Aaaaanyway. Snow. Lots, and lots of snow. Also ice. Very tired of winter! The household is having a heck of a time juggling sickness and snow and stupid snow-melt ice.

Classes last semester went well, yay. I quite enjoyed the class with Dan Dennett, philosophy of cognitive science, although it was definitely not easy. Evidently I have a lot of trouble writing philosophical papers (none were horrible, but they weren't great, either). Stats was fine. TA'ing was fine, if a bit stressful because I was grading finals around trying to take finals.

This semester, as noted above, I started collecting actual data. I am not having fun with the eye tracker, at least in part because it was added late in the study design process and I therefore know less about it than I would prefer. Also, though, because it can be persnickity. On the plus side, for the first half of my data collection the eye tracker isn't _quite_ as vital, so there's space to figure out how to make it behave. I have a research assistant, which is just plain fabulous. Trying to collect all the data myself would make me quite stressed/busy/overwhelmed.

I'm taking the second stats class of two, and not finding it terribly difficult as of yet, which is good. I haven't needed to study for the quizzes, because having done and understood the homeworks has been enough. I'm also taking a grad level cognitive psychology course, which is both interesting and a _lot_ of reading. Quizzes every week, too, which thankfully are provided ahead of time so that we don't have to deal with not only sometimes specific questions _and_ uncertain memory. The final ought to be interesting. I have already done the presentation/article critique/annotated bibliography part of this class, which while stressful at the time (hi, I was sick), means that the rest of the semester should be calmer.

I'm TA'ing an intro to cog sci/brain class, which combines well with the cog psych class I'm taking. It has been a bit difficult to remember which class I've learned about things in, between these two and the philo class from last semester, though! Funny, but also useful. There are two exams, a midterm and a final, which my students are very scared about (the midterm is next week). And this is the first time that the professor has taught this class, which makes it difficult to tell them for sure what to expect. I can at least say where I'm deriving my potential exam questions from (lectures), and I've created a brief summary of what I believe to be the most important parts of each lecture thus far for which I am awaiting feedback before sending to the students. I'm also in charge of the forums, making sure that guest lecturers are aware that they will be lecturing and that they will give me their slides ahead of time. I'm also the AV person for the professor, and the class is 15 minutes after one of my stats classes, and 10 minutes away no matter how I go, so it's a bit difficult getting there in time to set everything up before class starts. I usually try to hand the professor questions from the forums on my iPad for her to address in the meantime. I'm sure there are other things I do, too, but those are what come to mind.

Um... classes, TA'ing, data collection. Yeah, that's most of what I'm doing right now. Soon I shall have to figure out how to interpret the data, then analyze it. And I shall use my RA for that, too. :)

I play WoW sometimes, usually as a much-needed break from the everything else. I almost certainly do not spend enough time with metahacker, although hopefully being less sick will help in that regard. Some walking, some Ingress (enlightenment, unlike the rest of my friends). Today was gorgeous and I took an hour or two long walk because I needed to stop being in my office all day. That was also nice. :)

I miss my garden and fishies. And I miss having brain to think about spending time with people. I am _sure_ that I've forgotten people, like I do. :( But overall, I'm having a fabulous time in Tufts' psych grad program. :)


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Feb. 21st, 2014 03:27 am (UTC)
Yay for posts! I am glad your schooling is going so well - it sounds like it is being good for you. I am also glad you are mostly over being sick, and I hope that continues to improve so you have energy to get all the snuggles. *hug*
Feb. 21st, 2014 04:26 am (UTC)
Hurrah for updates! Thanks for posting all those details.

Feb. 21st, 2014 07:17 pm (UTC)
Glad you are having a "less bad than usual" winter! Thanks for the updatey-ness of this post. I wasn't sure where you were in your life!
Feb. 21st, 2014 09:03 pm (UTC)
Yay you did indeed post! Not sure what your Thursdays look like but they might be possible if you felt like dropping by my house after school/work for low key social.
Feb. 22nd, 2014 09:57 pm (UTC)
Thursdays in general are difficult, as I have stats followed immediately by 2.5 hours of taking notes madly and answering student questions in the break.

This coming Thursday, though, the students are taking a mid-term, followed by a lecture during the other half of the classtime. So I _might_ be up to visiting. We'll see.

And I may be more up to visiting on Thursdays when we get more into Spring, too.
Feb. 23rd, 2014 08:09 pm (UTC)
Yay for posts! <3 I hope that you're healthy this week. Well, and that I am too. :p My body decided it was okay to get a little bit of a cold. Now to see where it goes.
Mar. 3rd, 2014 03:07 am (UTC)
You know, I know the bit about not trusting a decrease in depression - "is it lurking about, waiting to pounce?"

But I hope it's continued. And I'm glad you're having a fabulous time.
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